Two unsuccessful fertility treatments. Two rounds of hope turned into heartbreak. The
emotional toll has been staggering, leaving me grasping for any semblance of control or
comfort. Lately, I’ve found myself shopping like crazy, filling my cart with things I don’t
necessarily need. Am I losing it?

After my second failed fertility session, I felt an overwhelming void. Each negative result was a
punch to the gut, leaving me spiralling in a mix of grief, frustration, and helplessness. Shopping
became my escape, a way to momentarily distract myself from the pain. Each purchase brought
a fleeting sense of happiness, a moment where I felt in control again.

But soon, my home started filling with items I didn’t even remember buying. Clothes, gadgets,
home decor—things I didn’t need and barely used. The rush of excitement with each new
purchase quickly faded, replaced by guilt and confusion. Was I trying to fill an emotional void
with material things? Had I lost my grip on reality?

I decided to reach out to Newbees, a digital platform I had heard about from a support group.
They offered personalized care and support for people like me struggling with infertility. Through
their video journaling tool, I began to unpack my emotions. Speaking my thoughts aloud, I
realized that my shopping sprees were a coping mechanism, a way to distract myself from the
crushing disappointment of my failed treatments.

Newbees provided not just understanding but also actionable insights. They connected me with
specialists who helped me find healthier ways to cope. I started exploring hobbies, joining
support groups, and focusing on self-care practices that genuinely nurtured my well-being.

Shopping was a temporary escape, but what I truly needed was to address my emotions head-
on. Through Newbees, I found support and began healing. So, to anyone who feels like they’re
losing it, remember that you’re not alone. There’s help there, and together, we can find healthier
ways to navigate this difficult journey.

Mansi, Delhi